Today.. I’ve been in bed. Just in bed.
I got up to let the dog out, feed her, and to stretch my legs because they hurt from being so still.
I slept at least 14 hours ..so far.
I just don’t want to be awake. I might go back to sleep…..
I just keep feeling worse about me. I want to scrub away the ugly but it’s just not happening, I know because I tried earlier.
I want a free wish, to be skinnier with perfect skin and longer hair that’s not dead from bleaching.
I’ve eaten but I didn’t want to. Pizza and a cinnamon roll. I feel like I ate something else but I don’t remember what it was.
All I have right now is time, and mirrors. Everywhere something reflective.
It’s horrible, I want to break them all.
Maybe I will..
Forever down the rabbit hole x