Yay for the dentist. Well… not really.I had two done at once today. But he filled them in white to be nice to me (no idea why).
Almost had a panic attack because I was only expecting to have one done and then I had litrally no clue what instruments he was shoving into my mouth. I just dug my nails into my hand and pulled my shit together as best I could.. it slowed the shaking at least.
I was numb for such a long time though I had work and it genuinely looked like i’d had a stroke or really terrible botox. It hurts to smile. I think it’s where he put the needles but I can’t be sure.
Saw bus guy today. It’s a week or so since I’ve seen him around what with me missing my early buses anD such. I wish It could be chill like I could smile and he wouldnt look at me as if he was about to leg it if I moved any closer. Like christ just say hello sometime so I don’t feel quiet so horrific about being within a mile radius.